Looking into the Mirrors and Eating the TRUTH

Oh what a grand adventure we are all on!


I just finished reading this article from Karen Dover and I think that it is one of the most concisely written pictures of what is going on right NOW, especially from an emotional level.

My own personal perspective of this tidal wave that we are currently riding has morphed and altered almost daily as I look inwards and outwards, and adjust and fine tune my inner world as I watch and learn from my outer world.  Never before has so much been piled on my plate, heaped high and constantly being refilled- to taste, to chew up and digest or spit out.  It feels as if every single piece of my life, my experiences, my emotions, my baggage, my history, my inner mind/heart, my consciousness, my logic brain, my physical body, right down to the very photons of my BEing, are being raised to the surface in a most magnificently magnified way. 

For the past few months I have spoken (at great length, much to the dismay of those around me, lol) about the constant line of mirrors that are being held up for each and every one of us. The "mirrors" that show us things that we need to look at in our inner selves and in our own lives. When we don't look into the mirror that has been placed in front of us, it just re-appears again in the next moment- making it self visible, faster and larger and more insistently as each moment passes, until the reflection is so vastly in our face that we have no other choice but to SEE it and acknowledge that it is reflecting US.  From that moment, we have to make a choice: to REALLY look at the situation/problem and SEE how our own actions have played a part in what was/is happening.  To look and SEE what the lesson is for us to take from this reflection and to acknowledge how it has been effected and affected by US to create the current moment of reality that has played itself out in front of us. To accept, fully and completely, the responsibility for that moment, that situation, that reflection, that has been created BY US.......


... and if we choose to refuse to look into that mirror, refuse to accept responsibility for our actions/words/deeds, refuse to acknowledge our part/participation .... then the mirror will appear again in the next moment- Bigger & Brighter- till it smacks us in the face so hard that we are forced to LOOK and SEE and ACCEPT  that responsibility. 

From the smallest happenings around us, to the grandest world events, we are all playing a role, even if all that entails is re-acting to the events.  Our parts that we play are our responsibility.  Our roles in this play have been created by us, to enable us to have the experiences that we wanted to experience....

...Now that we are in those end moments, the time has come to finalize the last of our experiences, to SEE what we have done, UNDERSTAND what role we have played, REALIZE our path through this journey that has brought us to this place where we stand.  The Universe is seeing fit to insure that we are ready to BEgin.  It has placed before us all the other actors, holding up those mirrors we need to look into.  And when we are hesitant to LOOK and SEE, then even the physical becomes involved. So many of us are experiencing "pain" and "sickness" that is being inspired by our OWN actions, thoughts, words, feelings.  It is time to let go of all of the past pains- emotional, physical, spiritual- conscious and unconscious.  But to do that, we need to SEE them for what they are and were. ....


..... and sometimes the Universe sees the need to seriously kick us in the ass to dump us out of our comfort zone and force us into a place where we to LOOK and SEE and comprehend the TRUTH.

"It is to be noted that it is not enough to simply to work at an energetic level at this point, it must be brought into your physical waking human conscious mind in order that you are able to translate the life that you have been living into a context that is understood at a human waking mind level.  This works to bring the energy that YOU ARE in TRUTH through into your physical being and into the waking world at ALL levels of your BEing. Many people are okay with working energetically but then separate themselves from the energetic work by separating that work from who they are at a human waking mind level."

For the past month, I have been served plate after plateful of my past, my actions, my emotional inner being, my unconscious and conscious decisions that have brought me to my place in this moment of NOW.  I have been staring into the mirrors before me while I sit through meal after meal of tough, bitter memories, forcing myself to taste each one, and discern for myself whether I wanted to swallow it or spit it out. In the mirrors around me, I see all that I AM, all that I have done, and I have asked myself: "Is this my drama? How have my actions been part of this? ..."  and in that moment I reconcile myself to the outcomes, and stand in responsibility for my part. I have eaten my way through mounds of shit..... and just when I think I must be finished, another course is put in front of me to gnaw my way through. Yet through all the retching and gagging I have come to SEE ME. To Understand some of my deepest kept secrets- ones that I kept even from myself.  I can SEE the ME that I have presented to the world, and SEE the ME that is my innermost BEing- flaws, scars and all. 

The pain has literally been REAL, on all levels of my BEing.

I know that the meal is not yet over.  I know that I still have more shit to eat..... and yet, I have grown immensely from the previous dishes I have been served and know that I will grow even more  from those to come.  I can SEE where I have been.  I will take responsibility for what parts I have played. I will stand in responsibility for the decisions I have made. .... but I do not wish to walk this path again.  I have learned from it, I have grown stronger for it, I have gained huge understandings into the ME that I AM.... and I thank this path for all that I have become and all that I have been. But I do not wish to act these scenes out again. For now, I will move forward, in full responsibility of BEing who I AM. Move Forward knowing that the past has put me here TO move forward....

AND.... I will hold up the mirror to all those around me to do the same.

"Now at this moment you are asked to accept the outer waking reality and to ACCEPT ALL JUST IS. Only from this position can you then take the necessary steps to alter your outer waking reality at this time.  This acceptance clears the fog of the veils of distortion."

Our "outer waking reality" just IS. ... but still we move forward, SEEing clearly through the fog and distortion and the veils that we have placed over our own selves.  NOW we see ourselves as we truly are. We SEE ME, MYSELF and I AM.

So.... look into the mirrors around you and SEE what you need to Understand, so that you can move forward: BEing, kNOWing, Responsible, and standing straight.  The past just IS, but the NOW  IS EVERYTHING.

Love
D

Acceptance of ALL that IS at human conscious waking mind level

Posted: October 27, 2014 | Author: Karen Dover

In order to move and shift in frequency there has to be an acknowledgement and acceptance of that which is presented.  For many of you at this time the ability to dismiss what is occurring around you is no longer an option. From family patterning that is now presented as unworkable to situations where many of you are becoming tired of “repeating”, all is moving into place to be released, prior to this it must be acknowledged and ACCEPTED at a human conscious waking mind level.

There are many, many teachings that seek to teach you to disconnect from what is happening at any one moment. In a world where the outer waking reality is extremely uncomfortable at many levels of the human life experience it is vital that you acknowledge and accept where you are at this time and find peace with this.  You are where you are meant to be at any given moment as the walk out of the old 3D earth created reality is one that you are being guided with. Remember you came here to this life experience in order to release the KARMIC dimensional realities that you have lived within for eternity. ” YOU CANNOT fail at what you came here to BE” (- HCoO, thru Karen Dover) for only YOU ARE YOU.

You may at a human conscious waking mind level ask why it is important to accept the outer waking reality when you do not like it, remember ALL JUST IS, it is the teachings that seek to teach you that it is one way or another that is seeking release at this time.  Therefore accepting the situation AS IS will show you what it is that you are running that seeks to teach you otherwise. There is no “negative” nor “positive” in TRUTH as ALL JUST IS. Again the teachings that you have anchored deep within your human vehicle seek to teach you that something is other than “JUST IS”.

ALL is a frequency and ALL can be moved and shifted but not until it is first of all seen. Many at this time are attempting to ignore what is placed in front of them. This “distancing” is a deep teaching from the old 3D Earth created construct which seeks to teach you to accept your own “version” of what is presented to you.  To work to release this filter you must accept that ALL JUST IS and this will then illuminate what you have been TAUGHT to believe about the world in general.

It is to be noted that it is not enough to simply to work at an energetic level at this point, it must be brought into your physical waking human conscious mind in order that you are able to translate the life that you have been living into a context that is understood at a human waking mind level.  This works to bring the energy that YOU ARE in TRUTH through into your physical being and into the waking world at ALL levels of your BEing. Many people are okay with working energetically but then separate themselves from the energetic work by separating that work from who they are at a human waking mind level.

It is not “spiritual” to work at an energy level for ALL in this universe is ENERGY in TRUTH, it is the frequencies that have been anchored within the human vehicle that seek to distort the decoding of the frequencies that exist around you.  Therefore it is not helpful to try to place situations, events or scenarios in any “boxes”.  ALL JUST IS.  Indeed the separation of who you are at a human level and how you energetically work is one of the greatest distorted teachings that exist within the old 3D earth created reality. ALL are ENERGY and ALL came from SOURCE, just because you believe that you cannot work with energy due to a teaching that you have been TAUGHT does not negate that YOU ARE ENERGY in TRUTH.

To view another human being and assume that because they do not “actively” work at an energetic level is therefore to walk in the blindness of the filters of the old 3D earth created reality. The human race are comprised of human vehicles into which an ENERGY has been poured. No one is “asleep” on this planet no matter what is presented, many are “ACTIVELY” asleep helping the human race move into the evolution that is now under way. To separate yourself from the human race and place yourself in any “category” is still separation, it is merely disguised separation.

Now at this moment you are asked to accept the outer waking reality and to ACCEPT ALL JUST IS. Only from this position can you then take the necessary steps to alter your outer waking reality at this time.  This acceptance clears the fog of the veils of distortion. It allows you to see that which has been hidden in plain view, that a race has been kept separate, divided and in pain for eternity and this race is now at a point where they can release this distortion and move into UNITY in TRUTH.

ALL JUST IS and YOU ARE.

“LOVE is the answer, no matter the question”.

Kx

http://truthcodes.wordpress.com/2014/10/27/acceptance-of-all-that-is-at-human-conscious-waking-mind-level/

Drowning in the Tidal Wave of Energy: Riding the Surf to BEing

Once again, this has been a week of incredibly intense energetic tidal waves, sweeping in almost non-stop, leaving exhaustion and for many of us, even confusion it their wake.

And once again, I waited to see who would be the first to pop up with an update on this next wave of high energy that has crashed onto our shores.  I had been waiting and checking into Gaias Portal every few hours since sometime Sunday afternoon- KNOWing that the update would happen any moment.....

WELLA!  All three of the sites I have been closely watching posted within hours of each other, and the message was ohhhhhhhhhh so clear and very very perfect in my own experiences of the past 72 hours.

I personally have been through an emotional rollercoaster- dealing with old fears and LOOKING at the past experiences and SEEing them for what they were and what they meant at the time and in the NOW.  There were a few times during the past 48 hours when the words "drowning" were very much on my mind. Drowning in emotions, drowning in fears, drowning in old history.....  I thought deeply on the experiences and tried to look at them "rationally", tried to discern what was MY fear/emotions/reactions, vs what was the emotions/reactions of others around me that I was picking up on.  Usually I am easily able to tell the difference between the internal and external energetics and emotions, but this past weekend I felt as if I was floundering on a piece of driftwood amongst the crashing waves.  No sooner would I work my way though one wave of overwhelming emotion, when a second and third one would hit, leaving me almost breathless, struggling for air.  The days were short in length, and yet L O N G in duration while I rode the wild surf.

Needless to say, yesterday I didn't even think about my computer or checking on anything, lol.  But this morning, there is was, exactly what I was looking for.   Below for you to read are the messages posted last night by Gaia's Portal, Aisha North, and Truthcodes.

Intensities of energetic pulses reaches maximum at this moment

13 Oct Intensities of energetic pulses reaches maximum at this moment.
Flashes of insight become commonplace among hu-being elements, and are shared rapidly.
Elevation of hu-manity to Hue-manity proceeds rapidly in the current Gaia time period.
Continuations of Light Elements Incomings is enhanced at this moment and results in Grand consciousness expansion.

http://gaiaportal.wordpress.com/2014/10/13/intensities-of-energetic-pulses-reaches-maximum-at-this-moment/


A short update on the energies
October 13, 2014
by Aisha North

The adjustments that have been undertaken recently will help to bring you all up to par as it were with the continuation of incoming energetic fluctuations, and so, even if some of you will still feel some temporary physical setbacks as the full scope of these energetic encodings enter your being, you will soon find yourself emerging from the fog as it were in every sense of the word. You see, as the ongoing inoculation if you will will continue to increase not only in magnitude but also in velocity, you will also continue to increase your abilities to incorporate them at an ever increasing speed. For now there is no holding back this flow of endless illumination, and so, as you continue to take in more of these energized particles with literally every breath you take, you are also in a continuous flow of expansion and eviction. In other words, as you continue to grow with this flow, you also continue to exhale whatever it is that your body has been holding on to, the detritus to use a familiar word of your former existence, and this will continue to exit your physical vehicle.

This process in itself is not without its interesting side effects as some of you may be able to testify to, for it will at times feel as if you have been running a marathon or moving a mountain during your sleep. And in many ways, this is actually what you have been doing, as you are all doing a formidable work of lightening your load in this way. And so, as day follows night and in the blink of an eye seems to be followed by a new day, this process continues to speed up exponentially, and you can almost be likened to shooting stars now by the amount of debris that glitters in your wake. For if you could see this from our perspective, you would see yourself as a shining pinprick of light gathering speed, while a trail of glimmering stardust shimmers in your wake as you continue to separate yourself fully from your old being.

Again, this process is something that has not been done before, for unlike others going through a similar process of upscaling their energetic vibrational field, you are doing so while fully immersed within a physical body. And so, you are truly the brightest stars on the firmament in every sense of the word, and you are also the ones who have been chosen for this very task by your abilities to fly as high as you are doing. For this is not something that is taken on by chance, but by a divine design, a design that you yourselves have been instrumental in putting together.

So again we say know that all is well, and you are fanning the flames of your booster rockets even as we speak, the better to accelerate your speed even more as this week continues to supply you with even more fuel for your engines, and so, all you have to do, is to allow that old field of dust that is still trailing in your wake to finally let go completely from your field. For even if this evacuation process of the old is beautiful to behold, and the detritus from it can be mesmerizing to observe, it is also of the greatest importance that you do not let yourself fall for the temptation to crane your neck and look behind you too much. For what you need to do, is to focus on the horizon ahead, and the more you continue to look backwards, the more tempestuous your journey will be.

In other words, let yourself fly away from the old and focus your inner vision on what lies ahead, not on those shimmering and alluring glimpses of your past. For they will only serve to slow you down, and remember the incoming shower of sparks will only serve to push you that much harder if you are facing in the wrong direction. So give yourself the leeway you need in order to let bygones be bygones, and set your sight on the uncharted territory that awaits ahead, ready for you to come and reclaim it. For it may seem unfamiliar to you at the moment, but the space that awaits you is more familiar to you than what you can envisage at this time, for it is indeed the primordial sea of energetic potential that beckons ahead, a place you used to know like the back of your hand, and a place that is so eager to welcome you back home into it.

And so, the more you let yourself forget what is trailing in your wake, the sooner it will let go completely from your sphere of influence, and the faster and lighter your journey forwards and upwards will be. So let go, and let the flow of incoming light continue to push you in the back so you can get reunited with that former version of you, the pure one, the all-encompassing one, the one that is devoid of inhibitions, limitations and lies, the ones that is pure and simple light and potential, but this time, it will be all this and it will be held within this familiar container you call your body. And that dear ones, is the goal you are aiming for, and it is within reach for every single one of you, and it is far, far closer than you perhaps think.

http://americankabuki.blogspot.com/2014/10/aisha-north-short-update-on-energies_13.html

Releasing the FEAR of the “unknown”

Posted: October 13, 2014 | Author: Karen Dover | Filed under: Birthing the New Earth, exiting the old 3d earth reality, expansion, LOVE, multi dimensional, New Earth Reality, universe of 3 | Tags: crystalline sanctuary, human life, Karen Dover, LOVE, new earth frequencies, TRUTH, universe of 3 |1 Comment For many of you at this time it may be a time of utter chaos, as the old 3D earth created constructs begin to dissolve there are no reference points that your human logical mind can reach in this frequency and so the human logical mind goes into a panic.  Many of you may have felt the increase in energies over the past few days especially just on or at the full moon.  At a human conscious waking mind level this may play out with roles and patterns being shown for what they are in TRUTH.  The triggering that is done at a human conscious waking mind level may be intense with very physical symptoms that may appear in various forms.
It is to be noted that in order to allow the flow and the movement of the New Earth energies then you must move from being a “solid” to “melting” to “fluidity”. The “solid” form being the static, solid that the old 3D earth created construct teaches you to be in order to be present and live in human form upon this planet.  As this is released then this form moves to “melting” mode, where the energies begin to flow and movement begins to occur. It is in this movement that your deepest fears will begin to surface as you have been taught to hold tightly on to them and to create from WITHIN them.  As they begin to move to the surface you may begin to believe that they are real and that you must “do” something with them.  All you are required to do is to acknowledge them and then to allow them to flow. Attempting to address them or ignore them will see them begin to be “fed” with the very frequencies that you are trying to allow to release and dissolve.
This is done on ALL levels of your BEing so can be felt on ALL levels and will play out on all levels. Many of you at this time may be tempted to try to hold on to other lifetimes and try to live through these lifetimes by bringing them into your current waking reality. This is not TRUTH and is not supported in the New Earth, only TRUTH is supported and TRUTH JUST IS.  The human race are moving into evolution, they are NOT recreating another reality that exists on any other dimensional level and this must be acknowledged and accepted and released fully.
The dance with other dimensional realities will have you remain in the “loop” of frequency from which this was/is birthed and will see you blind to the loop whilst feeding it.  The “unknown” has been taught to the human race as the “enemy”, to allow SELF to expand is to walk in the unknown and be in TRUST and FAITH of SELF at all moments of all moments, this does not mean that the unknown is indeed unknown for you are creating this at higher levels of your BEing and then allowing the expansion into said movement.
At this time there is much panic in the world, energetically a race that has been kept in isolation and kept in containment has just been handed the keys to the jail cell but much like a prisoner who has been kept caged and has subsequently adjusted to said cage the walk out of the jail cell may feel to be very scary indeed.

A New Earth and a new way of living is birthed through moving into expansion in ways never experienced before, it is not achieved by revisiting other dimensional timelines and trying to replicate something that has already been experienced despite how “comforting” or “secure” this may attempt to make you feel it is further distortion.  THIS is the only waking reality in which the New Earth can be birthed with off planet and inter dimensional distortions seeping into and throughout the old 3D earth created construct it is not  TRUTH to interact with them on any level. They will seek at all times to pull you out of balance and to pull you out of alignment.
At this time you are asked to allow the melting and the subsequent flow of energies through you, around you and within you, noting that at first this may seem overwhelming and may seem to be the very opposite of what your human logical mind wants to happen. ALL JUST IS and ALL IS BY DESIGN.  FLUIDITY has been prevented from being experienced by the human race until this moment and you are asked to BE.  As the outer waking reality begins to move into fluidity you will instinctively know when to move and to shift and to align fully with it.  It may feel as if you have been visited by an emotional storm, any storm has a calm centre and this is the place to BE whilst the storm rages and re-aligns the outer waking reality.  The shifting will be at a speed that you allow and can expand with, attempts at stopping the movement will see you in emotional pain and constriction and is not supported by the New Earth frequencies. By allowing the flow you allow expansion into the “unknown” which then shifts to become the known.
“LOVE is the answer, no matter the question”.

http://truthcodes.wordpress.com/2014/10/13/releasing-the-fear-of-the-unknown/

The Energetic Emotional Roller Coaster

The energy is just pumping and jumping right now.  Its seems that for the past few months the energetic roller coast ride has been getting longer and faster with fewer moments of calm and quiet in between.  I have written a few times before about various symptoms of the newer energies that our bodies and minds are getting use to, but the past couple of months have far surpassed anything I could of imagined a year ago, lol!

Beyond the physical experience of these energetic changes, the emotional experience has been rather exhausting at times.  As our consciousness expands, our emotions do too- ever changing, ever morphing as we follow the resonance of our hearts.  But beyond the actual emotional laundry that we are all going through, is the emotional release of our journey.  For the past few days many many people have been experiencing a HUGE outpouring of emotion- most notably grief, sadness, and anger and agitation.   We've been discussing this in one of the Skype rooms and some of the sharing that was done this past few days was amazing and I felt that many other people might resonate with the experiences and emotional responses and the insight of this amazing group of people that I call my family.

Love D






R: I'm having a very difficult time straddling both paradigms right now. I have a number of things that I "have" to do before I bug out of town a week from Tuesday, and I just can not seem to motivate to get them done - they feel completely uninspiring to me. I know that inspired DOing is important, I know that "all" we have to do is shift gears into that space of singing the song of our hearts, yet I am at a loss for how to do so. I think the biggest rub for me right now is in my own expectations. I have always had high standards for myself, and often not been able to really "live up" to them (particularly related to how long it should take me to do a project and what quality of work I can get done within that time frame). I hate letting people down, particularly if I have explicitly promised them something, and I hate letting myself down even more than others, even though I seem to set myself up to do so rather frequently. *sigh* I feel so ready for the shift to be here, yet I feel at a loss as to how to move towards it. I am afraid to fully believe any time frame, or to commit too fully to a change because I am afraid that I will just end up letting myself down in an even bigger way.

I know too much to throw in the towel and go back, and I don't feel like I know enough to move forward. I'm tired of being on the edge, on the fringe, at odds in my views with most of the people I interact with in person on a regular basis. I'm tired of surrounding myself with a shell to "protect" myself, and yet scared stiff of letting that go.

I am caught, suspended, waiting, wanting to ask my inner/higher self what I should do next, and scared of the answer, scared of what or who I might need to let go, scared that what I will hear is not that higher self, but my ego, my pride. I'm scared that I will find that I'm a fake, a "loser", "unworthy", or worse.

I've been a social outcast all of my life, and I have managed to "deal" with that internally, without resorting to any substances. I have taught myself how to stay pretty up beat, and even managed to be somewhat "mainstream" for awhile. I learned how not to care too much what other people thought, and even to pretend that I did not care at all, that rejection by my peers did not hurt.

I read about all the different symptoms that folks in here are experiencing, and find that I am not aware of experiencing most of the physical symptoms. I can talk the language, and I have an "analyitical" understanding of what is going on with the energetics, yet I can't seem to apply that knowledge in the way that I interpret it "should" be done. At the same time, I have had a good friend of mine sense me sending energy immediately after she asked me to, yet I was not conscious of doing it at the time or even after it in any way that felt "real".  I feel at times like a fake, a phony, a fraud. I have always wanted to think that there is something "special" about me, in that there is something more than the flesh and blood vehicle and that I am capable of far more than society and culture tells me I am. At the same time, I find that I tell myself that such thinking is just my ego talking

 The above was written as "stream of thought/consciousness" while sitting here having a good cry (it's been a while). Thank you all for your blessings of light in my life. I love you all more than I can express. (hug) (heart)


 "I have a number of things that I "have" to do before I bug out of town a week from Tuesday, and I just can not seem to motivate to get them done - they feel completely uninspiring to me."


D:I soooo feel this too!  christmas is coming and I have NO christmas spirit- it's not that i'm being a scrooge, but I literally do not care at ALL about this christmas and just keeping up the holiday for the childrens sake is almost exhausting my patience/will

 "I am afraid to fully believe any time frame, or to commit too fully to a change because I am afraid that I will just end up letting myself down in an even bigger way."

My friend.... so don't commit to a time frame or to any external change.  Live for you YOU, and BE and DO in what resonates with YOU in that moment.

D:  As I said above, I just cannot find even the slightest will to get excited about christmas- not for myself or the kids or anyone.  In this I perceive that I kNOW the irrelevancy of DOing christmas- the unimportance of it. I feel unable to set up schedules to do anything beyond the daily type stuff..... because it doesn't resonate with me.  Is that my consciousness saying "bah!  never mind, it's not important any way!" ?   I think so.  I would rather sit quietly and play lego with my kids than do anything else in this moment- because then I just BE, and relax.

Don't worry about letting others down in this moment- focus on you and that focus will absolutely draw to YOU what you want and need to do.   Focusing on what others want you to do, impairs you from BEing YOU.  so just BE.

"I'm tired of being on the edge, on the fringe, at odds in my views with most of the people I interact with in person on a regular basis"

D: .This is what I call the detachment of perception.  detaching from the people who's perception you do not resonate with.  In this moment people are being pulled together, there is almost a magnetic attraction that pulls the like minded together- for the acceptance of BEing.  To be fully accepted and loved for BEing WHO you ARE.  All those relationships that disallow that are quickly fading.  And either relationships are rebuilt under a new understanding and kNOWing of the deep acceptance of  you BEing you, or they seemingly begin to fade away

 ...... hmmmmmm..... I think i sense an article coming on

"scared that what I will hear is not that higher self, but my ego, my pride. I'm scared that I will find that I'm a fake, a "loser", "unworthy", or worse."

That is the fear that you are working through. (heart)  the energetics right now bringing to the surface all that we need to "work on", all the inner turmoil that we need to SEE for what it is and then accept or detach from it, according to what we feel. but FEEL in Resonance.

"I can talk the language, and I have an "analytical" understanding of what is going on with the energetics, yet I can't seem to apply that knowledge in the way that I interpret it "should" be done."

My friend, never EVER think that the way I think/see/feel experience, is how YOU should think/see/feel/experience (heart)  your journey and path are your own, and only YOU kNOW what is inside you or what your path is.  What I experiences as physical sensation or emotional stimulus, is how I have CHOSEN to experience that.  You have chosen your own experience and follow your own path.  I'm not Right.  You are not Right.  They are not Right.  It's the perception of your own journey that is truth to YOU.

"I feel at times like a fake, a phony, a fraud."

I can guarantee that every person in this room has felt that way at some point (heart)

"I have always wanted to think that there is something "special" about me, in that there is something more than the flesh and blood vehicle and that I am capable of far more than society and culture tells me I am. At the same time, I find that I tell myself that such thinking is just my ego talking"

No my love- that is your conscious mind telling you the TRUTH of who you BE.  You ARE special!  You ARE capable of far more that society allows to you think possible.  your inner turmoil is the argument between your kNOWing mind/consciousness that sees past the veil and the lies, and the brain/ego that tells you that you're being ridiculous, you cant' possibly be "important".
My friend R, you are so strong and so amazing!  Crying is the release of energy necesary to go forward, to accept the next step on your journey, and to cleanse the spirit of the doubts that you kNOW inside are the shackles you tie yourself too.

We love you my friend.

I want to turn this around for a moment because your thoughts on this really illuminate to me in this moment.  If I was the one that came into the room and said:
"I have always wanted to think that there is something "special" about me, in that there is something more than the flesh and blood vehicle and that I am capable of far more than society and culture tells me I am. At the same time, I find that I tell myself that such thinking is just my ego talking"......

.... what would you think?  what would YOU say to ME?   This is an honest question that I am asking you to think about and answer from your heart.

 H: R, Love....you DO sooooooo beautifully!  And all of you sending LOVE to R and the collective!!!  YOU ALL DO SOOOOOOOOOOO MAGNIFICENTLY!!!!!!!!  Thank you for inspiring I and stating what is in collective heart so eloquently NOW as all inbodyments make the final clearing for....THE FINALE! 

....I love you and return in kind.  ALL WAYS.  ALWAYS. (heart)(hug):*

K: R.  Allow others to be who they are.  I noticed you used the word "afraid" several times in your comment.  I have been there.  When I first discovered all of the truths that are associated with "waking" I tried to tell my family and friends about all of what I had learned.  It caused a great deal of stress between myself and those I love.  I was told to go see a doctor.  I was laughed at.   My wife almost left me and so on.

I learned that it is not my responsibility to wake anyone.  We are all on our own paths.
Find peace within yourself.  Be who  you BE, and let others BE who they BE.

"I learned that it is not my responsibility to wake anyone.  We are all on our own paths.
Find peace within yourself.  Be who  you BE, and let others BE who they BE."

H:(quiet whisper) yes

K: It's all about energy.  Find peace within R and the positive energy that you create will project outwardly, impact others, the illusion, the collective consciousness.
War and hate and fighting won't change the world....LOVE is the only way forward.


G: D, when you say DOing is this DOing, what we love DOing in what ever capacity that makes us the most powerful, peaceful and happy? Like just DO what makes us happy?

D: yes, exactly (sun).  when you BE YOU and you DO what makes you happy and what your heart tells you, even screams at you to DO.... you will be happy.  It just flows.


F:  holy shit I just read D's comments on R comments. I FEEL you R. OMG I have been going thru the same things esp the past few days. There is something in the air for sure my friend. You said it all so much more eloquently than I could. Thank you. THANK YOU.  (heart)

"I don't know what is going on today.....I have been so emotional."

D: Look at the emotions as they come to you- do a self analysis of that emotion- be it anger, agitation, sadness,....- and ask your self "does this belong to me? - can you see where it came from? if it's not internal, not YOURS, then know that you're moving through that for someone(s) else and helping them.

I've had fits of agitation so strong today, then deep sadness, then happiness...... none of it is mine, so I released it and moved on.

The biggest balancing thing you can do is to see if it's YOUR  emotions.  when you realize it isnt' yours, you can look at it and let it pass through you without "owning" it.  M said it to a friend of ours yesterday -  don't take on what's not yours, don't hold onto what's not yours- if it's not yours, then you let it go without taking it personally.


N1: such good guidance for me right now. thanks D!  im an emotional mess these past days. More tears than anger, alot of deep painful sadness.  This situation with the little boy who is my sons thai brother, has really tipped me upside down emotionally.  It hit home how fragile life is. One moment all is great, the next something can happen to dramatically change that.  The mother aspect of me is freaked out!


O:  (message) To Heather yesterday: Hi love! I have a great sense of being done. Can't barely be on fb or the internet at all. I've learned the difference between 3D love which was confined to a few and "5D" love were you love a extended family of many souls with different depth of love. This is an experience I have right now connecting with another being on the deepest levels simultaneously with other beings. Not to be mixed with intimacy which is another sacred agreement which go side be side with the non physical but is not limited to it. When we start to love more people than today the love will spread exponentially thus the peace on earth. I'm done and ready for the FINALE - TY Heather for reminding is of who we truly are. (heart) I love U dearly.

O:  Her answer: I love you tooooooo, O!  So many are writing to me saying the same thing today...started today....I AM SO IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THE ABSOLUTE PLAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (inlove)


R:  "What do I kNOW?" I know that we are more than flesh and blood - that the flesh and blood is a tool, and nothing more. What we are is far greater, like a person with a sock puppet on their hand is much greater than the sock puppet. What the sock puppet can do is limited only by the imagination of the person wearing it.

We are spirit, soul, LOVE. We are each a part of the infinite, and we are each infinite in our own right (yes, there are different scales of infinities). The only limits are those we choose for ourselves, whether consciously or not.

Society/culture has it all wrong, pretty much bass ackwards, when it comes to how this world works. We are all facets on the same diamond, points of perception in the same mind, the same data matrix. We all reflect each other. We are here to grow, to expand, to explore new territory, not stagnate and follow someone else's path or achieve what someone else has already achieved. We are each unique, not interchangable parts in some machine, but as individual as the patterns of ice crystals in snowflakes. We are all part of a greater whole, of several greater wholes, each one larger than the last, until you get up to the ultimate whole of ALL THAT IS. Yes, we are a part of that one, too. We are not separate, we are so tightly woven together that we can no longer see the threads. We all know it, we can all sense it. That is what we truely are, not what society tries to tell us we should think ourselves to be.

Getting the desire to know to outweigh the "but what if I'm 'wrong' " fear is the trick. *chuckle* Every time I have tried a visualization meditation for "meeting higher self" or other aspect of consciousness that is not my brain, I have always hit a blank wall, and I sense that it is that fear that does it. :) I'm working on it...

M: Agreed R! I can say this with confidence however, if it weren't for the lovely people here and some In other rooms as well, I would not be anywhere as close to those answers as I am, and aware of how the fear is the great deceiver.

T: Ha, that's where your (our) family comes in… we are taking each other home…
FEAR = False Evidence Appearing Real
so, nothing to fear. When you look fear in the eyes, it disappears. It's a chicken (no offense to chickens)  (chuckle)


"Every time I have tried a visualization meditation for "meeting higher self" or other aspect of consciousness that is not my brain, I have always hit a blank wall, and I sense that it is that fear that does it. :) I'm working on it"

D:  ...Orrrrr..... could it be that you ARE your higher self?  Could it be that you ARE eternal essence and that by looking for a "higher self"- looking for something quasi-external, looking for something "higher" than you, to answer your questions, you hit a blank wall that is in fact a mirror to show you that YOU already kNOW the answers to your question?

Would it help to know that I've never EVER managed to do one of those "meet your higher self" type meditations?  To know that every time I've asked my "higher self" to answer something, I've been met with a resounding silence?  For a long time I thought that I was broken- that there was something intrinsically wrong with me because I couldn't find that place/person/enlightenment that everyone kept telling me I HAD to find.....  then I realized that it's all inside of ME anyway.  I didn't "need" to find my "higher self" in a field of flowers, that I didn't' "have" to get to that calm place of silence to kNOW what I needed to kNOW.

Once I gave up trying to be able to do what everyone else told me I should/would/could do and be, and I just focused on BEing me and DOing what my heart told me to DO.......  then it just flowed.

S: omg D that's SO  BEAUTIFUL and SO TRUE (inlove) (heart)


"Ha, that's where your (our) family comes in… we are taking each other home"

D: … I would say it more like "we are helping each other to realize that we are already home".

This sense of "family" that we have here and in other places, is , in my opinion, the drawing together of those that are "HOME" already.  There is a great comfort, a HUGE sigh of relief when you are WITH people that accept you fully and completely for who you BE and love you and love what you DO- completely without conditions.  In that moment you realize that THIS is what LIFE is about!!!

 "I have always wanted to think that there is something "special" about me,..".
N: Here is the thing. This question is part of the self doubt programming that all of us in here are overcoming. It is a very damaging perspective. I havecome to realize that yes indeed, we are all VERY special. The problem for some is getting lost in the question and going back and forth with a sort of obse3ssion in the answer. Accept that you are special and that there 'is no spoon'. Forget the question and BE special. DO special things.
 Forget the question. Wring as much love and enjoyment as you can out of every moment of now. Love is more contagious than a yawn!

"What we are is far greater, like a person with a sock puppet on their hand is much greater than the sock puppet. What the sock puppet can do is limited only by the imagination of the person wearing it."

D: how about this analogy:  YOU are the person.  The sock puppet is your meatsuit that YOU control.  So searching for your "higher self" is pointless, because YOU ARE your "higher self".  You BE YOU.  YOU BE I.  the sock puppet is just the physical manifestation of YOU.  You are not the sock puppet, you are YOU.

"Forget the question and BE special. DO special things."

D:  I would say:  Just BE and DO and that IS "special"- all things "special" come from you BEing YOU, you BEing I, and DOing what your BEing calls you to DO!

N: Good point!!

N1: thats brilliant D thanks !  these conversations are deepening my understanding of I, which for me is very important in this moment.  i was feeliing a bit lost on this one lately i have to admit.

R: A couple of days ago, I was really playing with the concept of what reality is, along the lines of Morpheus' line "Reality is electrical signals interpreted by your brain". Seeing our eyes and other senses as projectors interpreting the data matrix, creating the hologram, including our bodies. I'm thinking that challenging very basic beliefs in this way was part of what brought on my first outpouring ^^^^^^^^^^^. I am continuing to play with this kind of thought, and observing the world through this lens. It really does put a whole new twist on what we have been presented with by "the world around us" (though from this perspective, it isn't there... (facepalm) (rofl) ) Hmm. Quite the ride down the rabbit hole! (rofl)


"Seeing our eyes and other senses as projectors interpreting the data matrix, creating the hologram, including our bodies."

G:Then this IN-body-ment was plugged into this so called projection of the Matrix that was presented/programmed from a source outside of I; and until such time as I have taken responsibility of I and am ready to reprogram the Matrix to what ever I want IT TO BE.............. in this Moment of NOW.....

G: I AM, I, ME, Eternal Essense, The SEERER, The WATCHER, The PROGRAMMER............... as Heather would say...... I Love The Absolute Plan.

A: for this inbodiment at this moment of NOW it has BEen a journey of LOVE. Denial of love, deception of self, judgement of my perceptions have acted as tools of duality. I AM I has the opportunity in each NOW moment to act anew. I BE conscious and aware of my programmed response as it no longer serves me. I DO acknowledge my ignorance, I thank the universe for an opportunity to BE LOVE in every NOW moment. I accept all as reality, as a thought IS a creation of LOVE. I no longer dismiss or disqualify any possibility as it IS a creation of Source. If I AM to deny any possibility then I AM to deny what IS. The illusion I see creates the reality I live. My interpertation of what IS feeds back to the ONE and creates for me a reality that I have created for myself. If I stand in judgement of my creation I cannot BE in gratitude for the opportunity, and I may miss the moment of connection to Source. I AM I absent limit. This IS ABSOLUTE truth to me. I LOVE this NOW moment and express gratitude for the experience to Know who I BE, and that what I DO  from this moment to infinity IS LOVE.... All IS LOVE (sun)(heart)(heart)(sun)

Z: Today's conversation very much brought me back to something I wrote on January 17 of this year. I hope you guys will take a few minutes to read it, as I feel it to be more relevant today--and particularly this conversation--than even when I wrote it...as then, I believe I was just beginning to grasp it...

http://ascendinlove.wordpress.com/2013/01/17/there-is-no-separation-we-already-are-everything-we-desire-to-experience/

N2: I have definitely been drifting in and out if 3D lately. In the past, so many have offered advice on how to 'ground' yourself when you feel ungrounded. I now think the time for that is shifting. I think when I feel ungrounded, it is now time to let go and let it go. By grounding, I feel like I am fighting against the higher frequencies. Lately, this ungrounded feeling is drastically stronger than before. I am extremely dizzy, off-balance and my vision blanks. I am beginning to think that if I stop fighting it and indeed if I 'work with it', the new, higher frequencies will start coming into focus. I think that will be truly living in this moment of NOW!  (inlove)

D:  Nick and I read your comment together and we both agree with you.  I try when I can, to sit back and allow the energy to flow.  doesnt' always work, lol- like getting hit with it while washing dishes or cooking, lol, but even still I always take even a brief moment to sort of acknowledge it- love it I guess would be the best way to say it.

The Pendulum in Full Swing

The emotional roller coaster is a wild ride at the best of times, but right now it feels like the biggest, baddest roller coaster ever invented.  I really loved Lucas' article below, as it rings true on so many levels.  While I don't agree with the whole "3D" "5D" "7D" "3012 D" ideology, nor the idea of trying to "attain" a higher level of "D'ness" (teehee.... sorry!) - I'm quite happy being Eternal Essence right here in this 3D space (this is where all the fun is, afterall) (I like being a creator BEing!)-  the emotional reconciliation is very clearly going on.

Something to think about- something that Lucas brushes against briefly here:

"If others mirror those swings to you it can also be you are part of their story to resolve it or you have similar polarity pieces of you  to face and unite."

As we moved through this emotional reconciliation we are going to find more and more people holding up mirrors for us to see ourselves in.  These mirrors are an active springboard to seeing ourselves clearly.  Is someone pissing you off with their actions? words? attitude? ..... Look deeper and ask your self why. Is it because, on some level, you see that particular attribute in yourself? Is it something that you feel inside yet have not yet identified or admitted to?  Look into the mirrors around you- and trust me, they are everywhere right now!

As emotions reconcile, so to does our past.  Fleeting thoughts of conversations from years ago. Remembering something to did or said to someone else and had forgotten about till this moment when it suddenly appears in your minds eye.  WHY?  Why do your suddenly remember THIS moment from years and years ago, now?  Look at it.  Play the scene over and over again and what does it say to you? Once you "get it", then let it go..... it's reconciled.

I have said it over and over this past few months:  Be aware of ALL the messages coming your way.  Listen to the song playing in the background during that moment of questioning your past.  What did that book say?  Remember that scene in that movie you watched last night that jumped out at you? What was that story that your neighbor mentioned to you yesterday when you met in the grocery store? ....

...There is no such thing as coincidence in this moment of NOW.  Look at EVERYTHING.  Listen to EVERYONE.... pay attention to the messages that are being sent to you. 

Ask "What do I know?" and then listen to the answer.

"Soul" groups (eternal essence) are coming together right now, so pay attention to the people who are walking into, or even back into, your life.

The party is seriously getting into full swing now, and it's gonna be so much FUN!!!!!!!





https://lucas2012infos.wordpress.com/2013/07/03/lucas-the-pendulum-in-full-swing-polarities-pulling-strings-groups-and-creative-juices-of-all-kinds-and-becoming-ready-3-july-2013/

Lucas – The Pendulum in Full Swing – Polarities Pulling Strings – Groups And Creative Juices Of All Kinds – And Becoming Ready – 3 July 2013

Posted on July 3, 2013 by lucas2012infos | 1 Comment

The pendulum is in full swing as long as the energy is in motion in between polarities that are not resolved yet in neutrality and balance.  A lot of people experience people in mood swings, having outbursts, having negative perceptions without cause. It is about facing the polarities to see them for the missing pieces you need to acknowledge and give them back their place with your other uniting parts of you. Let go of all attachments or bindings that still are  attached to that polarity energy if you’re integrating it. This is the process you now feel as being bouncing those things back and forth till resolved in neutrality by you.
If others mirror those swings to you it can also be you are part of their story to resolve it or you have similar polarity pieces of you  to face and unite.  See it as pieces from you not necessary being from a now moment but also from past or future lives or from others realms and dimensions you have been living in. All those fractal based parts need to come together to make you whole again.  It is like a crystal vase that shattered on the ground and all pieces big and small can be glued back  again into place but being in all sorts of timelines, dimensions and you’s all over.  Most of us are in transition to higher vibrational frequencies and for some that menas they are in a volatile state of consciousness. So be aware not to go into argument or battle . The energies can be to extreme in the swings of the pendulum now and those energies might have consequences you can not handle to well.
There is nothing wrong nor is there anything ever been wrong as all is just right as it is always.  For some still in certain perceptions it is difficult to see, better said feel, that way in facing things without emotional attachments and fear, or without having ties or bindings with things from past or future that are not You in the now. It is about not being pulled into extremes but bring all to the center. The center of neutrality, balance, harmony, BEing and unity.  It is about being fully in your vibrational frequency energy essence.
On the other side there is also lots of uniting in groups of like-minded, soul groups or creative manifesting and experience groups. The groups you will be drawn towards or even leave as they do not resonate with you anymore is just a part in the process. There is also no label to put on that.  Also in your personal relationships: family, friends, work, business, etc, you will find things to be ending, renewing or changing.  Take the processes without fear nor hold onto the old. What needs to change will change or you will be vibrational out of balance again if things are not being resolved into harmony.
The new groups and relationships will bring you also a greater resonance field that make creative juices of all kinds flow. Whatever it is you wanted or wanna do or comes synchronisticly or via singularity on your path, embrace it and let it flow. We are coming together to also make new concepts of realities to be.  Let me say a word about dimensionality :  3d , 4d , 5d or more. You might simplified see it as just vibrational frequencies that hold a certain concept together and tha is  perceived in a certain way or level.  But all is just part of the one in whatever concept, reality, dimension, or manifestation things are or not. Source is all and is one.  Source is in us present as we are one with source.  All is connected. All is just a vibrational  energy experience and this in all sorts of forms, concepts and manifestations seen or unseen.  The never-ending building blocks of energy and creation make things are in a continuous exploration of what is next and possible to experience, even on a parallel or multidimensional level or in a way in or outside concepts we know in our current reality, like time. The One is our collective togetherness and experience of all that is and isn’t perceived in past, present and future now merged into now. The explanation is probably just a fraction/fractal of what it  is in reality.
All will not go as you think it will, nor will it be easy also as we will in our processes walk sometimes out of natural flow that was intended. We have made in our waking up and transformation process  gigantic leaps through timeslines and portals. We did change there fore everytime our possible end result outcome. The state of flux we are in now is just the prelude of what will become soon  our new playing field.
See  whatever we do, or others do see there is no need for judgement in that. It is just like growing up and making your own faults to learn from that. You always have a better or next best choice or feeling to go with.  See that all is just one and also ever was. Some things still are in perceiving separation mode which is not the reality in the higher vibrational energy perception of things.
Just see we are in a wonderful journey nearing its culmination  of change for earth and us all, and the universe.  We soon are becoming like those that came into unchartered territories. W are going to explore totally new ways and structures and concepts that fit in the new higher vibrational frequencies. We are now becoming ready to jump into the new. Things now unfolding are the signs of change for some perceived as chaos and for those who see felt as a new reality forming.
Love and Light,
Lucas